Anyhow, I love you, my darling Edward, and for many years, I was in pain too, I was so sad I couldn’t meet real love. You gave me reason to live strongly, happily in this world. I wish you will never give in to the tough situation or the misunderstanding between us, I want only wonderful romantic happy warm feeling fills our hearts. 我爱你，爱德华，我也曾痛苦。我也曾难受不能拥有真爱。你给我坚强快乐生活在这人世的理由。我希望你不放弃艰难处境，不屈服于我们之间的误解。我要浪漫美好温暖的感觉填充你我的心。

　　I will be your air refreshes your heart, I will be your sunshine brightens your eyesight, I will be your breeze clears your mind, I will be your moonlight soothes your loneliness, I will be your oasis comforts your exhaustion, I will be your faith motivates your decision. Please be strong and wise, I am here waiting for you, will greet you with my warm and tight embrace. 我要做新鲜空气涤净你的心，我要做你的阳光照亮你的眼睛，我要做微风清醒你的头脑，我要做你的月光抚平你的孤寂，我要做你的绿洲安慰你的疲惫，我要做你的信仰振奋你的决心。请你坚强和智慧，我在这里等你，迎接你，用我的温暖和紧紧的拥抱。

　　Sleep well tonight, kisses……好梦，吻你……
　　Love forever,永远爱你
　　Eva
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　　没有修改语法词汇错误的原文，忠实于幼稚的曾经。


日期：2009-12-02　13:03:22

　　记得他第一次离开我，于05年12月飞到洛杉矶的时候，给我写过封长信，让我十分感动——
　　Eva mou: 我的伊娃：
　　While I fly to LA I want to tell you about the many thoughts in my
　　mind...what I think about my life, about you and about our new life together.
　　Its a random collection of thoughts...some wonderful, some sad. But I want to

　　share them with you because you are my other half and I am comforted knowing
　　that you will not criticize me or ridicule me for these thoughts...on the
　　contrary you will support me and help me to deal with the good and the bad.
　　This is something I have never had...a real wife, a real partner in life, a
　　real love. Thank you for being you...my soul mate...my true love.
　　当我飞往洛杉矶时，我想要告诉你我心里的许多想法……关于我的生活，关于你和关于我们的新的生活。这是一些随感……有些很美好，有些很伤感。但是我想和你分享这些，因为你是我的另一半，我很安心的知道你不会批评我或者嘲笑我的想法。相反你会支持我，帮我去面对那些或好或坏的一切。这是我从未有过的经历……一个真正的妻子，一个真正的生活伴侣，一份真爱。谢谢这样的你——我的灵魂伴侣，我的真爱。

　　Honey when I think about Christmas with you and the fun we will have holding
　　hands as we walk around Shanghai enjoying the holiday spirit I am overjoyed
　　that I have someone so dear to me to share this holiday season. Christmas had
　　become for me another job with many tasks... buy the tree, buy a million gifts
　　for the children, give Elaine something very expensive that she will never use,

　　spend the day with the children riping open the gifts while they careless what
　　they recieve their biggest concern being only who got the most presents while
　　the noise from the toys makes me crazy...the one"s that they play with for 5
　　minutes and then get bored and move on the next. Sometimes I worry that I have
　　created little monsters that will end up cold, spoiled and selfish...and this

　　makes me sad...sad because I have failed and failed my children.
　　亲爱的，当我想起圣诞节我们牵手漫步在上海街头，享受节日的气氛，我是如此快乐于有一个人这样和我亲密的分享这个假日。圣诞节曾是我的另一个带着许多任务的工作……买圣诞树，买不计其数的礼物给孩子，给伊莲一些贵重的她永远也不会用的东西，花上一天和孩子们一起拆开礼物，而他们并不在乎收到了什么，他们在乎的是谁收到了最多的礼物。那些玩具的发出的噪音让我抓狂。他们常玩腻了一个玩具，马上转移到另一个。有时候我担心我是否制造了俩个小魔鬼，会最终变成冷酷的，被宠坏的，和自私的人……这使我分外难受，因为我也在养育孩子方面失败了。

　　I wonder how I will fair with our children...with my second chance...will I be a better
　　father...will I be able to teach our children what is important in life...not
　　the stuff but true love and relationships. Will you and I be able to save my
　　children...keep them from becoming like her...will our love save them as it has
　　me.

　　我想如何才能好好对待我们的孩子。第二次机会来到的话，我会是一个更好的父亲。会教给我们的孩子什么才是生活中重要的东西。不是物质而是真爱和感情。你我能拯救我的孩子吗？让他们不要像她一样吗？我们的爱是否能如同拯救了我一样拯救他们呢？
　　I wonder about this New Year"s eve...where will we be...what will we be
　　doing. I am comforted knowing that I will greet the New Year in your arms and
　　full of your love...full of love for the first time in many years.This makes
　　me feel good all over. You know there is a Greek custom that the first person
　　to enter the home after New Year"s eve brings the luck to the home for the
　　entire year. I feel so lucky to have met you that I want you to be this

　　person...the one that will bring your luck and your love to our home.
　　我在想着今年的新年前夜，我们会在哪里，我们会在做什么。我如此欣慰地知道我会在你的怀抱和全心的爱里里迎接新年。多年来第一次拥有这全心的爱。这使我感到无比幸福。你知道吗，希腊有个风俗，那就是在新年前夜第一个进入家门的人，会给你带来一整年的幸运。我是如此的幸运，能遇见你，我希望你是那个人迈入我的家门。那个带着幸运和爱给我们的家的人。

　　My darling I think about our life together...where will we live...will we
　　spend our time in different countries or settle down in a nice comfortable home
　　somewhere quiet. Where will our children go to school, what languages will they
　　speak, will I be a good father to them, will our loving home make them into
　　wonderful adults, will they be beautiful like their mother. I wonder if I will
　　stay strong and healthy for you or will the years of abusing my body catch up
　　to me in the future. I do not want to fail you...I do not want to fail our
　　family.

　　我的爱，我思考着我们共同的生活：将会一起生活在哪里？我们是会在一些异国他乡共度好时光，或者是在某个宁静的地方构筑一个舒适魅力的小窝？我们的孩子会在哪里的学校念书呢？他们会讲哪种语言？我能当一个孩子们的好父亲吗？我们充满爱的家是否会让他们变成优秀的人呢？他们是否会如同妈妈一样美丽？我希望自己能保持强壮和健康的体魄，为你们。我不想失去你，害怕无法建立这个梦想中的家。

　　My mind drifts as I think about your smile and your eyes, how amazing you
　　make me feel when you glance my way with your cute grin. Its like God is
　　looking at me and saying “everything will be ok...don"t worry”. I think about
　　your lips and how perfect they are...a perfect fit for my lips and I tell
　　myself I have arrived...this is heaven.